The Holiday Season Dawns Upon Us.

This could be one of two or more posts I might make tonight. Oh my, why would I post more than once in a day? Life sucks or I let my mind wander to the point where I drive myself over the deep end time and time again. 

I've been eating Thanksgiving dinner since Thursday. I tend to appreciate it more in the days after Thanksgiving. It's probably because the expectations go down or the pressure that comes with the actual day are dormant in the days after. 

Holiday shopping has begun. I've spent about 600 bucks in two days so far and I'm only about halfway through the list of family members. 

Now onto the emotive pouring of the heart. I'm feeling lonely. I need to find my own apartment but I don't want to live alone. I need to get working on my Masters. I need to remove this feeling of loneliness I have. Work sucks and at the moment, I will be looking for a new school to call home in April. I don't want to leave my current school but administration is making it hard to coexist and since I tend to never speak up I might as well just leave quietly. 

I should see a psychologist or psychiatrist. What's the difference between the two anyway? I'm an educated, learned person. I should know. I should know. 

Onward... kinda, sorta.

Reading King Dork by Frank Portman. So far, I'm digging it. Another alienated teenage narrator who so far meets a mysterious but attractive girl, they kiss, share a moment and then it's all shattered by the simple mentioning of the word boyfriend. 

I don't want to end up alone. I'm deathly afraid of that. So again, I ask the gods and the sky... WHERE IS MY PUNK ROCK QUEEN?! 

Where? Where? Where? Where? 

I know life isn't fair but damnit. 

Dawning on Turkey Day

About to dawn on a 3 day work week. Turkey day is coming in 4 days which means 2 extra days off from work and Christmas is about a month away. Hopefully good times will be coming in the last stretch of the year. 

I'm probably crazy but still, there is hope for me... I hope. Haha. 

Terminator theme song is playing right now. It's a very good orchestration. Very good, full of intensity and emotion when the horns come in. 

Where's My Punk Rock Queen?

Just finished reading I Wanna Be Your Joey Ramone. The ending is a bit abrupt as are the last 20 pages or so. Not sure I like how it ends without anything getting full resolved but then again that's how life actually is. In life there no nice wrap up endings. Life never will produce a fairy tale ending. It's a delusion I sell to myself. Sometimes, though, I wish life would throw me a fairy tale ending. Just once. 

The question on my mind right now is, where is my punk rock queen? Have I met her already? Will I ever meet her? Shit, is she even real? Where is my punk rock queen? Where? 

I just don't know anymore. Way to fuckin' sound emo too, haha. 

Somber Days Ahead

Spoke with the receptionist at the gym today, a new one. She's cool. A little thick but very nice face. Great smile. A bit young though... 18, a frosh in college. We'll see. 

Moving onto The Crucible with the Juniors by the end of the week or early next week. Need to crack down on some essay writing with them beforehand though. 

Still reading I Wanna Be Your Joey Ramone. It's good... a bit cliche or dumb at times but it's got a bit of the spirit of Punk Rock. 

Apparently, November is the saddest month but Turkey Day is coming up and so is Christmas chaos. Oh well. 

Somebody told me that as the weather gets cold, people want to begin to settle down. In other words, people hibernate by getting girlfriends or boyfriends or somewhat reliable fuck buddies. It's on.  

It's been awhile

Not much. Submitted report card grades today. Finishing up The Scarlet Letter tomorrow and then a short answer response on Friday. The sophomores are rad. No problem there. 

Two more days before the weekend. 

Maybe I'll catch Soulfly this Friday at the Blender Theatre in downtown Manhattan. Maybe. 

Whoa!

TKE Alumni Weekend begins tomorrow. Should be an exciting time. 

WOOOOO!

Voted for the first time this past Tuesday too. It was good. 

Musings of the sort

Finished reading Anthem of a Reluctant Prophet. It was good. It ran a bit long in some parts but it was okay. In terms of the protagonists love interest it was left kind of open, so I hope he does get her. I'm sap for that stuff. 

Hit the gym today for the first time in like 3 weeks. It was good. 

Still rocking the muttonchops or the Lemmy as I like to call it. I'll be speaking at tomorrow's open school with my Halloween facial hair... should be interesting. 

Election day is two days away. First time I get to vote for U.S. President. Incredible.